i fear ..serious...

i fear , serious..i not joke...

8 time,already........what can i say?

i hate myself i always hurt my body...

always eat something do something hurt my body..

yes!always!!

now my body 亮起红灯了！！

how?? i fear...i fear i will die...

serious,i fear...i have so many things still not try and do..

and i love my mom...
every time i feel faint...i will very nervous...

when i nervous...i will faint than before...and my heart will very pain...

sighnnnn....that why???why?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

i fear la..serious....

now i also feel not well...

pls,give me a chance...let me take care my body...

plsss..

...............

...............................

 MOM I LOVE U 

THANKS YOU FOR EVERYTHING

SO HAPPY I HAVE YOU

C.L.M

失败

生气的资格都没有,真的很失败.

我真的很失败

失败到,总是要让着别人

u are stupid.yea..i know.

you are stupid..yea...i know...because i always hurt myself.

Talk To Myself..

其实我是不是真的开心的呢?

还是这是一种伪装?

以前小时,人人都叫我开心果,因为以前我的笑都是发自内心的

但现在呢?

什么时候微笑变了我的装饰品?怎么呢?

你还好吗？成长中的你,为什么越来越少微笑了?

17岁的你,为什么开始在意别人说的东西了?

以前的你都不会理会别人说的东西,都常用微笑带过....

为什么现在变了?为什么不在忍了?为什么现在的你要爆发就爆发?

你知道吗?这是不好的know?这样的你让人很讨厌知道吗?

为什么每次说要改,但每次就三分热度,每次都因为一时冲动

而做出stupid的东西,你真的够了stupid,真的真的很够了!!

其实我很想放下一切,重新来过,

重新过我的人生,

有时候我在想,我的选择是对的吗?

参加运动,做prefect,而忘了学业...

我真的很后悔,真的.....其实如果当初我没有放弃当班长

听老师的话去做prefect,maybe一切会不一样,.....

但如果没有做prefect,我也不会从坏蛋中变回好一点...

至少不在是烂泥了....是一个好泥...

对不起,现在我发现.....经过这一个月半的体验,

其实我发现我..其实一点都不适合,管理这么大人.....

我的能力其实就只有区区的30-40人的能力,....

为什么我会这么说呢?

因为我的能力就是只有这么多,

我是一个要求完美,要疯狂就疯狂,要沉默就沉默的人,还有就是..要做就要做到最好的人.

之前我很好笑,我问自己,为什么不要想其它的那样?

随便随便的做,懒得就懒...凡是当做没看到...

我有尝试..随便随便的做,懒得就懒...凡是当做没看到...

但我总是过不到我内心那一关....又回到真实的自己..

我不想那么辛苦了,很多东西我都尝试了,我现在想做一个普通学生了...

一个什么都不会的学生,一个只是回顾自己的功课的学生...

我也很想和别人一样,能够很班上的好朋友以前下课.聊天.玩等等......

这些日子就只有考试的时候我才有机会....所以我都很珍惜...

有时候我真的累了,我也不想在追求了...

坚强久了,我也累了,付出久了,在也不等回报了...

有时候,当我生气时,请你不要怪我不和你说话,你问下你自己有做错吗?

如果我有向你道歉那么证明是我错是我一时冲动..

如果没有请你不要怪我,可能是你Over了我的limit了我才会生气你的"

但大多数我都会生气自己多过别人,和我生气别人都不会很久10min后就会没事了..

除非那个人真的做了一些让我能够生气他一天的事情..hahaha..

有时生气时我会选择在一个没有人的地方一个人坐着冷静冷静或听歌..

伤心时我会选择不说话,同样的喜欢一个人在那里听歌,是时候就会在那里画画..

当我伤心或生气时不说话时,我只希望有一个人坐在我隔壁陪着我就行了...

陪着我但不要问我为什么,因为你该懂什么事情的...就让我静静的恢复..

在我的朋友圈里就只有三个人能够做到这样的事情...

Mr.H Ms.L Ms.N only ur Yes..is U..

还有一个不懂算不算,因为那时的我并没有生气没有伤心,就只是很累了..

趴在那里睡了大概有45min,他就给我听他爱听的歌,就陪着我...直到我

wake up.... 但我总是忘记和你说Thanks.. Mr.F 

hope i can meet u again...long time no see you already...how are u ya?competition got win?

我发现我不开心时我就会想写blog 写note发泄心情..

开心时我就会和朋友家人分享..

从小到大都是那样,只分享开心的好的给身边的人..

不好的就收在自己的心里,所以我常常说我的心很大很strong..

so that is why i sad that always?从小到大我都很希望自己能够和爸爸去跑步..

但这个永远都只不过是一个梦想,一个永远都不会实现的梦想...

伤心时我就会特别想念你...你过得好吗?

人生如此如此,成长就老天用来打造我们,让我们有个很强大的心的人.

有时候我很想找一个人,说出内心的话内心的痛,有时候我找到了..

但我就总是说不出,因为不想让人担心,所以我只有用来写,写出来....

YENLI ah,你可以很快乐的啊...不要常常把不好的带给自己好吗?

不要总是把好的分完给别人,留一点给自己好吗??

珍惜我好吗?爱我好吗?不要在伤害我好吗?不要把我的话当做耳边风好吗?

我对你好的话珍惜好吗.因为我不可能永远都那样.......

我读书不厉害,但不代表我的意见没有用,你读书你厉害,但也不代表你是对完的

珍惜那些不厉害读书的朋友的朋友吧,其实他们能够帮助你的。

还有...他们永远都会用真诚的心来对待你的..珍惜吧............

改变自己不容易,何况要改变整个

.....还是做自己就好了......

不理了

累了

要

停下来了

是时候

真的

要

slowly slowly first..

day three today,我倒了倒了。。。才三天我就被难题难倒了,

有时候我觉我不一很好的领导者,因他都不听我说有时候,可能还新?

很多人告诉我说,LILI班很难管但其实并非那样,

问题在于my prefect,they dont want try and lazy..

when they not do well...then i will feel that is  my problem..

so sometime i will feel persure ...

who can teach me,and be my listener?

today i find teacher...talk with teacher,i call teacher teach me.

..thanks teacher teach me a lot thing...today i talk with teacher....

my eye...突然忍不助了,眼泪流下来,

老师告诉我说,你千不能在他们或其他人的面前流泪,

不然他们会更加不听你,

when i say yea i know....

teacher say....maybe u still new...slowly slowly first.

u can do better,give urself a  time.

yea,i think i should stop run..walk first..

应该是我对自己的要求太高了..现在需要调整一下。
因为我是一个没有经验的kk,我需要边学,边教,边领导。
放心,我并没有放弃,和老师谈谈了,流泪了,感觉很好了..冲进也会来了,
我会慢慢教,我相信大并非那么差的,大家有改善的空间。

jiayou,相信别人说的,你可以的,你需要时间吧了。
set target..give urself  two week.believe yourself confident.

jiayouuuuuu..

but sometime i really need a listener.talk to me.it will make me feel better.
my listener where are u....

strive strive strive and strive

so fast my from 5 life is coming...    :)

那也意味着,我就快要毕业了,是时候我要为我的前途,想一想,

和做出选择了....

从小到大,我都想成为一位chef,

以前小时候我觉得......

因为我觉得他们是一个很厉害的魔术师 :)

因为他们煮的东西,可以让一个不开心的人,变得很开心...... .. .

但现在的我,觉得chef 是一个很神奇的东西..

我觉得他很有挑战,haha..

但我真的如果我要成为chef 我必须要improve我的english :)

so now i very hard-working to  learn it.

我真的很想很想成为chef,和去到外国发展......

这个梦想很远,但我一直尝试靠近它....

hehe,当有时候我想放弃的时候,我都会一直的问自己是不是真的很想要??

但我总是给不懂自己答案....

虽然我喜欢当chef,可是家人都好像不赞成..

但我会尽量去实现它.. 

:)

i stop here,because very late already,so byebye hehe.

#happyMood

"AH BOYS TO MEN 2" Theme Song - "BROTHERS" MV

MY SKY IS..

我的天空? 是长得怎样的呢?

很多时候,我都在埋怨,天.....

以前我常常都对着天空问,天啊！！

为什么你设给我的道路....

是多么的艰难,是多么的苦。

但我知道,这一切都你给我的考验,

可能你要我体会一些东西,学会一些东西,那就是

''先苦后甜'' '' NO PAIN NO GAIN '' ''忍得着忍'' ''不要轻易流泪''

''要坚强''

谢谢你,把握锻炼得比以前更加的STRONG,

以前的我,很容易被人打击,我很冲动,我的脾气很不好..

但谢谢你,把握改变了,from2 开始..你就把握改变得如此如此...

现在的我不再像以前那样的 冲动,脾气暴躁,性格也改变了很多

但也谢谢你从小到大都给我一个,不计较的心 <3 p="">

谢谢你教会了我 ''微笑待人'' 

谢谢你教会我 ''记得感谢''

谢谢你给我一个完整的身体,健康的身体 :)

从小到大,因为家庭的原因,

你让我学会了坚强,

你让我学会独立,

你让我学会一样东西,那就是 

'' 自己可以解决的事,就自己解决,不求别人 ''

你也让我学会了,一样东西

''不要责怪别人,因为自己也是不足的''

.........................................

我的成长虽然遇见了：挫折，痛，泪水。

但谢谢你,总是在我想放弃的时候,你都会派一个天使来到我的身边

cheer up me,talk to me,and care me.

真的很感谢您 ''MY GOD'' 

因为你的考考验,你的教导,你的关心,你的安排,你的爱

让我的天空和别人的有一点点不一样:)

以前我的天空就只有黑与白,谢谢你

让我的天空里加了更多的色彩...

谢谢你.

i promise u 

我不会在轻易的低头,放弃

我也不会在埋怨我的生活,身世，还有你的安排.

thanks u thanks u thanks u

Never mind , i still have ur guys :')

yesterday i really really sad,because i can't believe why my mami 

will like that!! she is change...she so 恐怖 i feel...

一个人原来要变是可以变得如果恐怖,如此如此....

我不敢想象..sigh...一切都过去了我也不会想了.

我不会在求你任何东西了,你的一点点的爱我也不稀罕了,你去给别人吧!!

huh~我会永远记住你说的话!! 

我不是生气你,我只是不开心,为什么你会说那样的话...

我是你唯一的女儿yer..你不要那样好吗?

我也是人我也会痛,我的心真的真的会很痛,听了你说的话!!

没关系,我i forgive u,and 我会证明给你看!!

重点我也不会在求你了!! 谢谢你以前给我的爱 :) 

没有你在,我也不会觉得缺乏什么的..

我还记得我二年纪你在japan回来..

那时也是我第一次看见你,那时我很害怕你..但久了就okay了...

但直到昨天,一起都变回去以前了....对不起也我不想那样.....

maybe u small gas?because before i don't want change skl to ip then u now...like that??hahah,never mind

没关系,没关系,没有你我的生活也是可以很好:)

我很strong,比你想象的还要STRONG!!

never mind,i still have my friends,my anut :)

The way is not in the SKY . The way is in the heart .

H。O。P。E

 HOLD ON,PAIN ENDS

second day duty on holiday

i love your all,ur all make me have a nice day on this few day^^

i really really want to thanks pkkd n ps

haha,ur two make me so proud and happy today ,love u=)

we are the top we are the best we are prefect smk sk :)

i love u my prefect family,u make me change super many :)

second day.

today is a second day i try to forget u...

but...when today i go school,duty.....
how i know..u also have going to school....for class tambahan..

and u come to ask me why not reply sms u,actually ...

i really really don't know how to reply u....

that is why i just smile and go away..........

sorry mr.wrong... sorry  :(

just a friends okay?just a friends :) okay?
can la..i know can :) 

sorry...
seriously...
开学我真的不懂怎样面对你..希望我不会遇见你><

thx u mr.wrong

Thank you mr.wrong..

sorry sorry sorry...

i very sorry....

i just hope we are a good friends forever 

i know i 自私,因为我不想因为破坏我们之间的友宜

可能现在不是时候,

because i am not ready for that..
because i dont want get any hurt again..
because ,i fear...i fear will same like last time....
so.sorryy...
mr.wrong..we.are.the.best..friends.forever

thanks u :)

haha,thanks u my dear :)

so sorry,i cannot be your 接班人..sorry...
就差一点就差那么一点点...A n B 

就一个位子,就那么一个...可惜上天就不给我们这个机会,

没关系啦,don't be sad liao okay?

现在你的接班人也不错呀 :)

虽然我也是有一点sad啦,但真的很谢谢你对我的肯定
thanks u ，i love u my dear :')

haha,i still remember that day....

你突然间,跑过来问我,Yenli 其实你有想过要做AJK 吗？
when i say YES'' 

then u ask me ,what post you want to do/be?

when i say ,什么都可以的时候,then u SMILE''

haha,and tell me,记得不要告诉shy chyng,hhaha

do you know , that time i very very 好奇''

为什么你会问我这个问题 :)

i really really cannot believe u will ask me that ><

haha,but any way,thanks u 对我的肯定

thanks u thanks u thanks u 

i love u

we are happy family Kumpulan B

oh yea^^ 

we are the happy family,

thanks god thanks you thanks your all give me a chance to be the

ketua kumpulan B,emm..

,现在我接手你的位子,

我答应你的东西我一定会做到,

i promise u , i'll make the group be the top on prefect team.

so,i'll try my best to do well''

and

i'll try my best to improve our group :)

haha,don't worry,i have a lot plan to our group already ,

so hahha,放心交给我吧 :)

yenli here , everything will be OKAY!

believe me,because i am YENLI <3 nbsp="">

ShaPo thanks u for everything

ShaPo hey hey hey,i really really thanks u :)

thanks u and thanks u for something =)

okay, i love u ，Thank you appear in my life

and i have a question want to confirm....

but i know u ,won't tell me,because other ppl ask u ,

u also didn't tell....but it's okay...

and i think  i know that answer is what 

................

huh...stop here really really need to stop here...

thanks u 

friendship forever

thanks god let me know ur <3 p="">

i won't forget both of you my lovely ketua=)

sorry..We missed

   we missed....why?what happened?

 maybe是名命中注定?

Don't know everything just maybe :)

haha,maybe u can say this is 天意??
Don't know,i also feel so sad?

nvm la,she also don't right?

haha,emm,u also have a good P.K.K in your group =)
so both of ur GOOD LUCK
i love u and thanks u  

谢谢你对我的肯定 :)

u are my best ketua kumpulan A forever <3 p="">

Actually do you know what you want or not?

Actually do you know what you want or not?
and what you can be or not?

sometime ..are you sure you can do well on this thing or not?"

sometime ...are you sure you have chance to do that or not?''

and

sometime ...are you sure they will give you this important chance or not?''

yenliiiiiiiii  do you think it before?

No......but in this few week,someone tell me a lot things.....
then i know i no hope already...

actually..i know why..

but has one thing i want to know..!!that is....

if your can't do that things u promise  me  one..
then why u tell me before?do you know it hurt?
why people always,make me happy then make me very sad?
that feel like  Roller Coaster...slowly up..fast down..
i know you have you reason..
i also know my problem...
but at least.....
no..sigh......when think it...i feel sad...so i should stop it here.....?

but i hope , i don't know it before..
because
''HOPE BIG,SAD MORE''

i am try my best to get WIN

i‘m not that good, i same like other people ,

 i need training ,i will cry , i'll injury , i  also have a sad time .

when people ask me,hey! why u can run so well?

i'll just tell they all,''training hard'' and ''confident''.

tell you!!i have give up before,but lucky i have my dear friend talk to me 

tell me '' you can't give up,no matter how '' . 

and scold me,thanks you mr.lim  

you are the important person in my running life,no u no me,

thanks u train me,teach me,and care me :) love u

till now when i go competition....

i also will get pressure and i also will worry and fear..

i know if i want to win ,i must overcome that all..

till now i still in try my best to get win,

i hate myself , why i am not  make every effort to run,.. Instead, try to.....

''i must change it''i promise myself,god,teacher.

next year is the last year to run mssd,

i hope i won't get regret.

就正如大人说:不要留下遗憾,一辈子就可能就只有一次,要尽情的去享受去比去跑.

因为那可能是你的最后一个比赛了.....

不要留下遗憾..

不要以后后悔,不管结果如果,尽力了,你就是赢家

i know,it's true...

but..又是要做到这些,真的有点难..

so that is why,till now i still in try try try and try....

say easy do hard

but if u have heart to do that,no matter how hard u also will go to do right?

no matter that things hurt u how much..how pain...how how how...

u also will go do,right?do it until you success ?right?

say  ''YES''

say  ''CAN''

i keep tell myself,this...

if you think you can't,then you can't 

if you think you can ,then you can.

because if own already tell yourself cannot,

who will think you can?!

RIGHT?

Offenbach - Can Can Music

june pls be nice^^

                    

 June plss be nice..

competition month ...hope i can win this competition :)

god bless me,hope u support me..
june..i have one big big wish..
that is 希望我的身体恢复以前那样那么健康..
hope it come true,god bless me..thanks.
june i hope i can happy smile everyday no more trouble..
and have many many GOOD NEW^^

希望我有:新的职位,新的自己,新的眼镜,找到一个很好很好的朋友:D

ME

我的梦想,并不伟大
但我努力去实现它...
我读书并不厉害..
但我并没有放弃学习..
能够与我聊最内心的事的朋友0
不要问我为什么,朋友我很多,但真正被我接受的我还没找到..或还没在这样的感情..
我需要的不是同情..是关心与鼓励

we are Duuu Family

                                    

my vb best friend cy

she is choi yaw,she is my 2013 msss vb captain

she super powerful on volleyball...

she is our team 秘密武器..

she very nice and she super LIKE SNSD

her room SUPER MANY THINGS ABOUT SNSD

i love play ball with her ,because fun n other :)

and she super love eat 肉丸:) haha...

and...........

My Honey Yw :D

she is yiwen,she is our KP,she so nice :)

i very happy know her,

she very awesome,i must thanks her on something=)

when VB/Run mssd-msss competition,

when i down/sad thanks her cheer up me always :)

and Let me restore confidence :3

thanks u love u

THANKS U I LOVE U dear friends

    

 

      

   thanks ur all,

when i down care me,cheer up me,
when i go competition,supports me,
when i down,talk to me and make me happy,
when i exam,give me note n teaching me,
when i sick in school,take care of me..
when i sick in competition,take care of me..    
THANKS UR ALL :)

200m Mssd 2013

thanks this guy , come support me before competition start

    i still remember when i waiting 200m start

what ur all ask me,

hey,yenli why u still can Calm and smiling?

emmm,i still remember what i say tooo

emm,i know i will lose...because in front of me that girl 

last year is top3 on mssd...so i just enjoy to run....haha

after 20 min....

200m start......

in fact i cannot believe i can win her and other...

get no.1 hahah...

serious ,i so surprised n happy,teacher also

i must thanks myself,teacher,god

no give up

enjoy ，relax ，can run well :)

I LOVE UR ALL ATHLETE FRIENDS

NikeRunTraining 2013

         

  MSSD 2013

MY ATHLETE FAMILY SMKSK                                                 

MSSD 2013

  we are happy family ,we are 1 malaysia , we are 1 perdana

i love ur my vb dear friends

谢谢你们出现在我的人生过程里面,

爱这个字,写一千遍都是十笔,

爱这个字,说一万次都是我爱你
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS

排球,让我学会了很东西..

也让我学会坚强=）

thanks VB

13th May

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO OUR MAMA PN.NORZILA :3

SUPRISED^^ i think she cannot  imagine we will do it to her :D

i told myself

after this VB msss 2013, i told myself..

 my Vb life is end, focus Running Life..

End doesn't mean Give Up..i still will keep play volleyball..

but i will focus running more than volleyball only...

i promise myself ,next year mssd 200m 4x100m 

  must go final!!

so i must training more,Spend time in running..

pn.norzila i promise myself n i promise u...

200m my target~

YENLI U CAN DO IT

MY VB FRIENDS EE N AS

no.3 n no.11

our pretty ,eevonn n ashley  

MY VB FRIEND YS

she is ying shuang,she so nice n awesome

she so powerful on volleyball n basketball..

she from5 already..so sad this year cannot play

volleyball n same team with u...

last year.....very regret...

emm,so happy i know u,when i PMR thanks u send me notes n teach me math :)

thanks u,u are awesome at all...

keep in touch  Ys :)

VB friend LW

No.10 Potato Liwen :D 

 name potato no nice in fact...

Hollywood Nice Than Potato :3

she play vb very well,

sever dmm Good,OMG!!

and

she also very nice n funny..

haha,wanna ask u one question..emm,who is ur bf?xDhaha

emm,hope u like that shirt,i send u that one :D

good luck ur VB life :3